24
Jun
2019

Diet. Day 1.

So if you read my last post, you’d know that the binges hit a peak 10 days ago. I actually ended up having 3 big ones in six days (Wed/Fri/Sun).

The following week I made it through the whole working week without one, and was very pleased, until I let it all hang out on Saturday night and went berserker. That cemented my decision that I need to put the brakes on for a while, and perhaps as a last hurrah, I had a little bit of a dessert feast last night (Sunday night) as well.

So  here we are, it’s Monday the 24th of June, and my plan is to diet for 3-4 weeks at most to get myself feeling and looking a little more athletic, before I try and attempt this ‘normal person eating’ thing again.

Perhaps this is a relapse. Perhaps this is a bad idea. I don’t know. But eating lots of everything doesn’t seem to have stopped me from losing control so perhaps relearning some discipline with myself will be helpful.

It’s slightly uncharted territory as it’s really only the second time I’ve attempted to lose weight without tracking calories/macros, and it’s the first time I’ve tried without the Fitbit. I’ve also got some slight changes to my diet in mind, including trialling a low carb breakfast (mostly eggs/cheese/meat), which will be interesting, and also a bit of a challenge to a fear food. I’ve always loved eggs (and some types of cheese) but always been fearful of the fat content. So there could be some good come from it as well.

This is gonna be interesting…..

 

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2 Responses

  1. B says:

    Have you thought about reaching out for some external help if you’re still struggling in x weeks? Having this in mind has been helpful for me.

    I hit a rough patch in my rehab at the beginning of the summer, and was struggling with the basics again. I committed to trying to get back on track myself, but if I have trouble after that I would call for backup.

    My backup was: I’ll pay for a coaching session with Tabitha Farrar. The knowledge that I had a plan if things didn’t go well made things a bit easier.

    • Ben says:

      Hi B

      Sorry, I only just saw this comment. Really gotta turn on notifications.

      Yeah. That’s definitely something I should consider. I don’t know why I didn’t think of coaching again, it was something I was considering last year, and somehow got the idea I would be OK without it. I guess I considered that working with a HAES counsellor (as I have been doing) might be a good substitute – but I’m not sure she’s adding much value, to be honest…

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